I have to call school today and see about getting my leave of absence extended.  Actually, I should have called them two weeks ago because I was meant to be back on Tuesday.  I try, but I’m terrified they’ll say no.
See, I don’t look ill.  In fact, I very rarely look ill.  I’m not allowed [...]

I’m used to being at least somewhat ill.  Asthma, allergies, insomnia, epilepsy, clinical depression, random immune system issues no one understands, these are all things I’ve been dealing with since birth.  Most of the time it no longer phases me.  Unless I’m having a particularly bad day I don’t even notice.
Except now I’m starting to [...]

Suicide is a horribly cruel thing to do to someone who loves you.  – Person on the Nano Boards
Kiss my ass.  Has it ever occurred to you to shut the fuck up about things you obviously don’t understand?  Suicide isn’t about you.  It’s not about anyone other than the person who’s attempting it.  No one [...]

I hate this feeling.  I know it will go away eventually, but at the moment I hate it.  It’s pervasive and frustrating and makes me want to throw things.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression when I was five (something everyone ignored until I tried to kill myself at 11, thanks a lot mom and dad), [...]

I am thankful for therapy.  Today that’s about all I can come up with.  I feel like shit, dissociative episodes seem to be happening any time I leave the flat on my own, and I’m starting to think my depression is hitting another “let’s make Tobias want to kill himself 24-7″ phase.  I haven’t started [...]